Pass Out Of Existence
Let Go
My scabs are almost picked
Slowly growing into this
Feelings I just can't let go
I am such a bore that you need that much more
Go back that way and see what you get from me then
Nothing at all
My dead hands rise
Why am I this way?
Face my past I can't let go
I see them in the jel
Laughing at me it is hell
Nothing can stop this torture
Fake my way through life
Call on my wife
Went back that way and I saw just what I was worth
Nothing at all
My dead hands rise
Why am I this way?
Face my past I can't let go
I won't take no for an answer
Dead Inside
I felt so alone
You left feeling so empty and needing
Can't see the glitter in you
You called me all the time
Hiding behind your lies materialistic
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
You called him a friend to help you get through it
I see your true face now
Well my tears are gone, I am happy now
Thanks for making it clear
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
I am dead to you
You take my heart and used it as a tool
I wish that this would just go away
You can't find love you can't cry tears
And you won't be crying alone
Who are you today...another face erased
Severed
Stay awake to decide
Are you coming back?
Is this my sanity?
I can't forgive
Oh is it the same to me?
I can't take your place
I'll never see you, never flee from me
Severed
Lost lies in the house I bring
I can't f**king see
I can never pull your self from me
I can't focus
Libertine my "said to be"
I will never save you
Wait...today is not the same
Severed
Lumps
I feel as if I have been dreaming
I am confused as to how I got here
One minute
I am heading down a path of destruction with no hopes but for death
Then there was you
You opened me to a different light
The path you lead me down was priceless
With one quick glance it was stripped from me
I was so ashamed I never let you be you
I have been puking with regret
I found myself again
And although we were apart
I managed to move on
Something was still missing
I made me sick
Far to familiar
I needed you once again, maybe now I can change
Maybe now I can secure my lumps
Pass Out Of Existence
Oh I'm that sick I see it that way
I'd rather be dead then have you stay
You pretend that it's OK
Right now it's my time to take
Feeding off my hate today
Feeding off the lives I waste
Now it's time to change my ways
Now it's time to erase my name
Can't see my face
You can't see my face now
Pass out of existence
Gone
Disgusted by your presence now
I wonder what it would be like if you were down
Could you cope? Could you really cope?
Could you hope? Or would you sit and wait for me?
Seeking for my placement now
Seeking for my placement now
Now it's time to change my ways
Now it's time to erase my name
Can't see my face
You can't see my face now
Pass out of existence
When I close my eyes
I see myself dead
I know you want it this way don't you?
When I close my eyes
I see myself
Dead...gone now
Split
Late night comes are you home?
No you're not
You're out with urge to satisfy yourself
it's your vicious plot
Looking back I realize that it's my fault
I'm not around so your love comes to a halt
You have no remorse in you
It's the only thing you know
You destroy me every time you little cunt
I never wanted this
Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies
Every time I trust you I lose in the end
I feel disgust in myself
I love how you can call me and pretend you're innocent
While I'm out here trying to better myself
You're a pig when it comes to my emotions
You drown me in your wake because you have no devotion
You have no remorse in you
It's the only thing you know
You destroy me every time you little cunt
I never wanted this
Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies
Every time I trust you I lose in the end
Painting The White To Grey
Face I am nothing face
Complete by sarcastic tastes
What a waste I think I'd rather die
Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life
Always situations I can never hide
Crying tears of anger, hate
Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do
Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive"
A desperate cry for something else to justify
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to grey
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey
Plastic always drastic
A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through the attic
I know somewhere out there someone cares
Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think it's time repair
These scars will never clear
I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day maybe being sane
I might have tried before...but I locked the door
Now I need a reason to unlock it
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to grey
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey
Cutting and popping
I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping
Lying and crying
I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying...
I take dying
I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did
Cold
In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried to die
Taste My.....
Fall into my hole
I keep seeking
Is there anything left to consume now?
I wish I were happy living in
Living in your perfect world
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
Now where do I see myself?
Stagnation from my own selfish thoughts
Should I work to achieve my goals or should I work to leave you be or
should I work to keep you home?
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
May guns rise to kill me
Vice Grip
Rizzo
Pull up your car you're home from the night on the town
Could not find anyone to go home with to show off your insecurity
So you put your "I love you face" back on
When you are this way you think you are God
But the people around you are destroyed
Coming home getting off by killing who you love
I hope you end up in a body bag
Walk up to your room to be with your lover
Although they don't share your desire
That night frustrated and intoxicated
You need to leech onto another
When you are this way you think you are God
But the people around you are destroyed
Coming home getting off by killing who you love
I hope you end up in a body bag
Pretend you are the king
One day this will all come back to you
One day your child will be a man
Sphere
Crawling back up from the floor now
I look above me and there you are
I see your smiling face so pure, its gold
Reaching your hand out to touch mine
Perhaps all I needed was your smile
A nice compliment or two
Where were you a few weeks ago?
When I was wanting to die
I felt so worthless
But you saved me
Watching me almost fall under
You were with him I was with her
Wanting each other more then life
A kiss away from being perfect
Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you
All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two
I hate my thoughts now
I'll leave her alone to live in bliss
Your my savior, my dream come true
Why
Trying to figure out a way
I'll lick your wounds, I'll heal your sores
I can never face my past
Not together I felt so sick inside
Death will come very soon
I tear as we drift away
Picture me dead would you cry
Forced Life
Images still in my head of you dead
I wish I could take them away instead
I sit in my room alone and cry over my loss
Will anything ever be the same?
I wish I could imagine you happy
A life of ecstasy that would be good enough to stop the pain that lingers
In my heart I know I would be content
It's your forced life...It's your forced life...doesn't it feel the same to you?
I sit and wonder
While you ponder of pathetic items that bring you happiness
Those things that put a smile to your face
Are the things that kill me inside
I know deep down you have a good heart
But why am I never included in all of this?
I take you in...rise you up, yet my soul stays untouched?
Nothing ever changes in your mind
Nothing ever changes
Stick your hate to me
I'll find a way to break free
Options
A slave to my thoughts daily
I finally lost my craving
Need this to end real soon
You come then you go away
No way I can make it through this
Can you feel my heart fade away?
Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?
Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?
My friends can't explain this to me
When I see you I don't see me
I feel I'll never gain
Your affection is a must to me
But reflections of past life won't let me be
Right now all hope is lost
Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?
Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?
Save some for me
There's still blood for nine
Jade
Face black another shadow of innocence tainted
Gave back all the lights and glitter
Wrong track again and again is stings
Wish you all could feel like this
12 is for the reason of regret
9 is for the pain that I'm caused
Will strife ever cease? Someday...
f**k this mind that is made to hate
Complete the task of humility
Restrained from who they want me to be
That's what they want me to be
That is not quite good enough for me
f**k you and your thoughts on me
f**k you and your thoughts of me
f**k you how can I not be me
f**k you I will never let you take me
I will never be that good little one
I can never see what is so good about life
I can never change just who I am,
just what it is I think I am doing
My hands fell down now I know I failed
You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale
Maybe I should just end all this right here
Would you like that?
Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded
I am staying here to betray all of you
Never failing me again
Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?
I'm going to save me
My eyes turn the color jade
I look at everyone around me
I am so sick of this place
Anyone and anything makes me sick
I just want to end it all
I return to my room walls white with black shades
Oh how would red look?
The reasons are not for your ears
The feelings are not for your heart
I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming
Can I find a way out besides this?
I need it
I want to be where you are
I miss you
The Impossibility Of Reason
Cleansation
What do you expect from me
Will I ever be what you want me to be
Will I ever live up to your standards
Will you always look down on me
Maybe I'm not who you are
Maybe I want to be myself
Live the lifeI've always dreamed about
This is not your path to choose
Yes I taste it
Yes I breathe it
Yes I hate it
Yes I feel strain from
Our separation
But
This is my life, this is my life
My Cleansation
Our separation
This is my life, this is my life
It'd not yours anymore
Why did you insits on ruling
Why did you try and control
Why didn't you ever listen to me
Ignored me like a dog
Maybe I'm glad we're apart
Maybe I'm glad we don't speak
anymore
I feel better now
Now that you're gone
The Impossibility Of Reason
You preach to me as if it matters
Never worrying about yourself
Or the wrong you've done
Think you know the way
Want me to follow you
Selfish lies you're set out to prove
So what if you had your faith
You should realize
Realize that you're already dead
You fall
You fall face down at the sight of youself
No one to pick you up
Look what our lives have become
I steal from you as if it matters
No remorse to me
Or the shame to come
Thought I knew the way
Never followed you
No more time to lose, does it bother you
So what if I had my faith
You should realize
Realize that you're already dead
I fall
I fall face down at the sight of youself
No one to pick me up
Look what our lives have become
And that's why hell
Is the impossibility of reason
Pictures In The Gold Room
Dark room open
No light for years
No way to find out
How long has it been
Screams heard from a distance
The shredding sounds of pain
Looking for reasons
Slowly becoming insane
For eyes staring
Such evil eyes
Picturing them
No longer alive
Accidental
Unintentional
Years ago
There was lose of control
Constant horrific nightmares
Life turned into a deadly maze
The haunting sounds play on
No more bruised feelings
Can it shine through this
Will it ever shine
The pictures in the gold room
No Light
Can be this bright
Death is only a way
Desire and temptation
I lost you
False hope and rejection
Revenge and repercussion
Rejection, revenge, false hope
Repercussion false to extinction
No way to explain
The blame has to be given
A wrongful accusation
Only stirs the rage
A fire that cannot be put out
Can only enjoy the insanity
To become the nightmares
Will end the dreams
Cold winter chills
No escape
Will this ever end
This is the final maze
Power Trip
Face to face
No time to waste
This is the time for revenge
Your claim to faim
Of crushing dreams
Your control has no hold on me
I hate the way
You have no shame
You act like nothing'd happened
It's time to rise
The final fight
This is the last time
I will not fall again
I will not let you win
f**k your power trip
I'll throw away
The wasted days
The chance for revenge
My claim fo fame
Ended in vain
This was the last time
You are the one who's forsaken it all
Nothing has changed so together
we fall
I am the one who's led us to believe
You can't change me
Down Again
How many times can it change
How long will I be restrained
It's appalling to think that
All my time seems to be wasted
Will it stop or is it inly beginning
Here on the inside
My life is not over
I'm down again
Fake smiles surround me all day
No more can I tolerate
These excuses or all this
Constant pressure overloading
Make it stop the fire's always burning
Pure Hatred
I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My time's spent rearranged
Motherf**k it all
I can't stand this
Remember when I said
Everyone makes me sick
Well nothing has changed
I hate everyone
This vicious cycle still remains
Constant clusterf**k, bloodstains
Ignorance, you kill for God
Expression not allowed
You f**ked it up
With your motherf**king games
Remember when I said
I was so ashamed
Well nothing has changed
You have to
Pick and choose your fights
You have to
Come out alive
I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My judgment fades away
You'll never change me
Remember we are through
I am staying here
To betray all of you
And nothing will change
The Dehumanizing Process
Explode
Clear the way the new king has arrived
To take your place while I've got you on your
knees
I always had this vision of who I'd become
A powerful giant who could rule with ease
And who would
Bring the truth
I will bring the truth
Your time is up-there's no chance left for you
Bring the truth
I will bring the truth
Your time is up as I end it for you
Was it me or were you just afraid
When you promised me nothing but a throne
When time comes you will hide the fact
That you will only be one way
A fake liar
You can try to hide
It will all come back to you
You shatter dreams before they're fully dreamt
You're a pig and should die
I would feel no remorse
I honestly absolutely f**king hate you
Hate you
You can't change this
The only thing you have to remember is
Bury my dreams... I will bury you
Crawl
As I lay this all to rest
Shadows appear reminding me
Of all things left unsaid by me
Maybe one day you'll believe
That I will crawl
I will crawl on broken knees
It's beyond what you really
need
Forcing it all out of you
Will I make your life complete
Come Clean
Am I the sorrow
that you won't reap
Am I the secret
that you can't keep
Well I won't stop
until I'm complete
And I won't stop
until you believe
I won't stop until you need me
Stigmurder
Ever want to commit murder
Feel the rush as you kill
Looking into dead eyes
Collecting their last thoughts
Sometimes I feel no remorse
Sometimes I want a taste
Why am I so different
Than those who can just do it
I want to change what I've become
But I can't kill the urge
But I can't kill the urge
You are now mine forever
Walk with me one last time
You'll walk with me one last time
I feel you embracing
You wish it would end
I feel life for the first
Time I ever have
You cannot f**k with me
Like you have in the past
This time I will stop you
Dead in your f**king tracks
Your eyes close away
As I feel salvation
Now you pray
Light, the final vision
Your eyes are blank
I want to commit murder
Feel the rush as I kill
Looking into your eyes
Collecting your last thoughts
I never feel remorse
Now I want is taste
I know I'm not different
Then those who can just do it
I want to change what I've become
But I can't kill the urge
I can't kill the urge
You are now mine forever
Stigmurder
Eyes Of A Criminal
The rage has overcome
No more will I shun
These thoughts I've had
This lie I've lived
I let them put the blame on me
Engulfed in hate
Retaliate
You can't conceal these thoughts
You can't disguise this rage
You have
Overstepped
Your boundaries
Now I've got
I've got your back against the wall
Forever trapped
Staring though the eyes of a criminal
A broken home
Left alone
An excuse you used
Don't bullsh*t me
Save all the breath that you can breathe
Engulfed in flames
Incinerate
You can't conceal my thoughts
And you can't disguise my hate
Staring though my eyes
Overlooked
Closing comments made you wonder
What was the start of it all
Hunting to find the answers
Unavailing attempts to be me
Hey
Did we distract you
Did we prevent you
Did we bore you
Did we stop you
And I'm
Betayed by you
Won't be overlooked by you
Betayed
Betayed
Hoped you were thinking of redemption
Found out you erased the memories
Erased the thought of me
How can I believe this untrue
I know I'm not insane
Come take a look in my eyes
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